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She says she knows what she wants.
But the truth is she has no idea.
So I’ve taken a year off. And now I have no idea of what I want to do with my life. I’ve looked over hundreds of programs offered at universities and colleges, and none of them really appeal to me or make me say “OH WOW I WANT TO DO THAT!” I have no idea what to do. I do know some things though.
1. I don’t want to work for someone else (but I’m sure I will have to at least for a little bit.)
2. I want to make a liveable amount of money, doesn’t have to be extravagant though.
3. I feel limited for some reason. Are there actually things in my way or am I just holding myself back?
*sigh* maybe I just don’t know how to go about achieving what I really want. Kevo tells me I need to talk to a pastry chef who has opened up their own shop. I agree, but don’t quite sure know how to do it, or how to pick one that I really like and admire. I want to go to Le Cordon Bleu in Ottawa. But I am not quite sure I want to take out a student loan from the bank to pay it off at once.($23,000 at once is a big amount!!). I guess I should just suck it up and join the rest of the crowd and end my post-secondary schooling with a huge loan. I will just be like all the other fish in the sea who are plagued by debt and horribleness. Hooray for me!!
Secondly…should I…should we…should we cut down our trip of 2 months long and only go for like..3 weeks or just 1 month? It would save money for sure..more money for LCB!
The title is exactly what he is saying.
Anyways. Just thought I’d add a little somethin’ somethin’ to this boring and dead blog.
I am actually back home. To the country I love. I hated it there. No way I’d be able to stay for a year. Also, I had another blog and was writing about my daily occurances there which included the demon child happenings. The family found it some how and obv. didn’t like it so here I am! Back home in the great uncrowded country called Canada. I will never in my life live in the US. If I marry someone, and they get a job there or whatever, they will know that I would not be going with them.
Here are some cat paws to brighten up my mood
Okay. Now that that’s out of the way I can ramble about my favourite food.
SOFT PRETZELS. Oh god I knew I loved them before but now I love them even more. I might be addicted to them. I’m going to make some tomorrow so that I can eat them ALL. And not share. Oh their butter goodness and deliciousness and soft squishy chewiness and butteriness and saltiness and OH GOD I could go on forever in an even longer run on sentence. I love soft pretzels. I have an addiction. I love them. I love love love them.
In 18 days I am leaving. Leaving the country I have loved and called home for the last 19 years and few months of my life. Moving to a country I said I would never want to live in, and yet here I am getting ready to go. I’m sad, really sad to leave. I am going to miss everyone so much! I think that at first, the person I will miss the most and the longest will be the one and only Kevin. The reason behind that would be this: he is a possibly limited thing in my life, and I don’t want to feel like I am cutting it short. Because with my family, they will always be around for me (also limited in a way, but that’s different!) and I just don’t want to be all “what would have happened if I hadn’t left?”. Some people say that distance can bring to people closer together after a while and strengthen the bond between them. We can only wait and see what happens in the end. For now I am trying to enjoy every last minute we have together. Wait, not trying to, I AM enjoying every last minute we have together. LAHVE!!
*this is the point I always get to when I am writing a new post. I write a small amount and then I just have no more desire to write anymore. Maybe I will continue later in another post.
Whenever you see pictures of dogs on tv or on the internet they are always happy, they appear as if they’re smiling. So cute and happy! So I always want to have pictures of that of my dog. I get out the camera when Foster (that’s my dog) is in a happy mood and start taking pictures. This is cute! He looks so cute! So happy! And then when I go to upload the cute pictures of my dog, they aren’t cute at all. He looks so cranky in them. Tired. Sad. Upset. Why is my dog like this! He growls if you pet him too much, or sit beside him when he sleeps. Won’t let you touch his feet unless you say “let me see!” as if you are going to cut his nails. He hates birds. When we had the porcelain christmas village set up last year I saw him out of the corner of my eye. He snuck up to the table really slowly. He was watching me the whole time to make sure I didn’t see and ever so slowly picked up one of the figurines in his mouth and slowly backed away with it and pranced off into the hallway. So silly! He will pull washcloths off the side of the sink and chew holes in them, and will do the same with dish towels to lick them. And the oven mitts too. He opens the garbage can in the bathroom to eat snotty kleenex’s, he tries to lick the cat all the time (who is a cranky bitch and hates him) and he stares at me through my mirror to wake me up at night.
I love him. I love this weirdo jerk dog.
So here are some actual cute pictures of him.
I have way cuter ones but honestly I am too lazy to search through all my pictures right now as my laptop is being mighty slow.
(heart symbol that never shows up unless I copy and paste and I’m too lazy to do that) Taro
It has been tradition in my family for years to make a Christmas list every year. When we were little it was for Santa, and of course it still is today 😉 But these days we use Christmas to ask for things that we need, and maybe some things that we would like. Christmas is and always has been my favourite holiday. It’s not so much a holiday as it is a feeling though. I love the snow, I love when everything is covered in a thick blanket of fresh white snow, bright lights are shining through, things are decorated with holly and mistletoe, garland, wreathes, I love it all so much. And of course, the Christmas tree. There is nothing better than laying on the ground in the dark with nothing but the lights of the Christmas tree on and having a nap! I always have the best naps that way.
So anyways, this year my Christmas wish list is different. I can’t ask for baking related stuff, I can’t ask for anything big. I am going to be asking for small things that I can take with me and will be useful while I am in North Carolina for a year. And really there are only about 5 things. Some things I know my parents probably will not get me, but it’s fun to have them on your list anyways 🙂
2. This super soft blanket/throw I saw at Quilts Etc. One side is kind of velvety, and the other side is a fake fuzzy fur type thing. So soft and thick. To keep me warm and remind me of home while I am gone!
3. The sony cybershot DSCT77 in brown. I’ve read mixed reviews about it so far though..I might change my mind on the model. I would just like a better camera to capture all the fun moments of my year away.
4. These beautiful Swarovski crystal “Points of Light Moonlight” earrings. Okay, so these won’t be really useful on my trip except for making me sparkle, but I barely have any earrings and I don’t want my ears to close! I just like sparkley simple earrings like this in general 😛 Plus they aren’t made of nickel, so no allergic reaction! I also think they are sooooooo pretty. I know my parents won’t get them for me though. Maybe I will buy them for myself on boxing day 🙂
That’s basically it. I’m sure my mom will think of more useful things for me to bring with me. She always thinks of the important stuff that I forget 🙂